The past few weeks have been…crazy? busy? crazy busy?
I completed my internship in Kansas City last Monday, moved to Oklahoma on Tuesday, started my new job on Wednesday, and flew home for my brother’s wedding on Thursday. Wow. What??? Talk about a life changing week.
While this new season of life has brought about a lot of exciting changes, it has also brought a number of questions…Did I make the right move? Should I have taken this job? Will this job get me where I want to go career wise? Will this move get me to where I want to be in my personal life? What am I doing? Where’s the chocolate? Help?
Amidst all of this uncertainty, I do know one thing to be adamantly true:
God is good, God is in control, God knows exactly what He is doing.
That is so comforting, and yet can be so confusing when the Lord seems to be quiet. Last December I was torn between staying in Kentucky and moving elsewhere to find a job. I called up my old riding instructor and had a life chat. She gave me one of the most truest and meaningful pieces of advice I have ever gotten. On that cold, Kentucky December day I was driving through the farm after my interview and was told “It’s not your decision to make anyways. This is God’s plan and you are just along for the ride.”
I am just along for the ride. We are just along for the ride. You are just along for the ride.
I get SO caught up in trying to make the right decisions, trying to work everything out and plan it out in my head. But hello, I do not need to plan anything. We are not called to plan, we are not called to figure it out, we are simply called to trust in Christ and seek Him first and foremost. In my thinking that God was being quiet, I was ignoring the fact that I wasn’t really asking him for guidance or wisdom of what to do or where to turn. I tried to figure it out on my own and was left more confused than I started. But God is sooooo so good and wants the best for us, not for us to be confused. In reality, my dreams aren’t mine. When dreams are God-given, there is not a power in the universe that can stop them from happening and from fulfilling those dreams beyond our earthly expectations. That is a beautiful promise he gave in Ephesians 3:20. Seek Him and it will all work out according to His plan…which in my experience is always WAY better than my plan. 🙂
This had been, and is still, a long season of transitions and feeling not like myself and feeling overwhelmed and feeling just plain weird. I kept praying, but wasn’t feeling any peace. Finally, Wednesday morning I picked up my Bible. Before I opened it I prayed that God would speak to me, and I mean really speak to me. I opened to Psalm 23.
The first verse: “The Lord is my shepherd, I have all that I need.” HELLO COMFORT. A few verses later, “He guides me along right paths.” Okay, Jesus. I hear ya.
What a sweet reminder that in the Lord, we have all we need. Not only that, He guides us along the right paths when we surrender to the Lord.
What a sweet, sweet reminder and truth to cling to. Amidst all the change, all the questioning, all the feeling weird and lost and confused that I can cling to the truth that I have all I will ever need because I belong to the Lord and He cares for me, and you, so so deeply that we can’t even fathom the kind of love.
Following your dreams is great, but following Jesus is far better.