I’ve always loved sunrises.  Early in the morning, the birds haven’t quite started chirping yet creating a crisp quietness all around. Almost as if your attention is being pushed to the beautiful colors God is painting in the sky. cropped-img_4768.jpg

One thing I haven’t always loved is change. In the past 4 months, I have experienced a ton of life changes.  I quit my job in Oklahoma, somewhat (okay, majorly) reluctantly moved to Colorado (where I moved 2 times already), and took a job on a completely different career path.

The past 4 months have been the largest whirlwind of my entire life, and without a doubt the toughest season I’ve ever walked through. I’m talking roller-coaster of emotions feeling excited, terrified, lonely, overjoyed, distraught, lost, confused, and at peace, and that’s all within the last hour.

I am extremely blessed, though.  This season of immense trials has shown me exactly how much I have to be thankful for. I have had the constant support of my family, my best friends, and the good Lord above. I’ve learned that your people will always be your people, no matter how many hours, time-zones, and days between visits pass. I also have been reassured that Jesus is always with ya, for real.

I recently read both of Bob Goff’s books, Love Does and Everybody, Always.  Side note: go read them ASAP. 🙂 One thing that really stood out to me in these books was the idea that sometimes when you ask God for an answer, a direction, or whatever your asking for, he sends you a person.

It took me 3 and a half months to figure out that’s exactly what God did for me. He sent me a person, my person. I’d actually known her for about 4 months prior to God sending her to me… In fact, she brought along with her two other good ones, so He actually sent me three “persons.” What a deal!

I’ve learned that it is so important to lean on those around you, or around your heart if you’re far away distance-wise. My person has been a constant encourager, one I can call at any hour of the day, to talk about any joy or problems that I encountered that day.

This has been the toughest season, but things are looking up.  Like all things, God works in His perfect timing for the good of those who believe.


The sun will rise, but not even a millisecond before it is meant to.  It’s the same with every aspect of life. Those promises He has given, those things He has placed on your heart will happen, but not a second before He says “it’s time.”


I have only been to Whole Foods two times before: once to buy dark chocolate covered almonds (my fave) while living in Kentucky and once when my mom and I tried to find something funky to cook for dinner (we found purple potatoes). Needless to say, I don’t shop at Whole Foods or boutique grocery stores.

Tonight my friend and I went to Whole Foods. I was wanting some good produce, apples specifically, and Laura suggested we go there.  I was up for something other than Walmart, so we headed out after work.

Fresh flowers, brightly colored fruit, and a plethora of people greeted us as we walked through the door, yet only one thing stood out to me: NON-GMO labels galore. I had to search long and hard to find “conventional” apples as most everything I saw was labeled non-GMO. BLAH. I bought some grape fruit and we left as I do not support “non-GMO”.

I got to thinking on the way home about how I don’t advocate for agriculture like I hoped I would after graduation.  Here I am, with a degree in agriculture, having worked on a farm, and I’m doing nothing to advocate for it other than respond to a couple of Facebook posts here and there to inform my friends when they are being extremely wrong. (i.e. Chickens being fed other chickens….nope)

When you search “gmo” on Google, the first thing that pops up is the Non-GMO Project. Honestly, that terrifies me.  This group is using scare tactics to tell you what to think about the food you are putting in your body.  There was not one agency, not one scholarly source that appeared anywhere on the first page of results.  Nothing from the USDA, nothing from Purdue, nothing at all but blogs and groups that bully you into believing them.

I studied GMOs in several classes during my college career.  One class in particular, Rural Development, talked about the benefits of GMOs.  We had a debate at the end of the class and you had to advocate for or against the use of GMOs.  While there are several benefits such as decreased pesticide use, higher yields, etc. I have included a link at the bottom with more information.

According to, there are only 10 GMO products commercially available: squash, cotton, soybean, corn, papaya, alfalfa, sugar beets, canola, potato, and most recently apples.

What does this mean? The “non GMO” lettuce is no different from any other lettuce as no lettuce is GMO. Same with the strawberries, same with the grapes, same with practically everything else on the market.  Groups are scaring the general public, and it is working.

I believe that GMOs are necessary to feed the world as the population is continuing to grow and land available to farm does not. GMOs have also been around for quite some time now, dating back to Golden Rice.

I respect that everyone should have a choice in regards to what they are eating.  It is up to you whether or not you want to eat something modified or not, but please, please, please educate yourself and others!!!

Listed below are links to several places with more information:

Home Is Where the Horses Are

Friday afternoon I got a text from one of my best friends asking if I was wanted to come  to town that weekend.  The weather was supposed to be really bad this weekend, but the radar looked clear and I had a free weekend after a long week, so I packed up my bags and headed south a weekend with my best friend in the earthly promised land: Texas.

All it takes is crossing the state line for the air to feel a little lighter and my spirit to feel a lot more at peace.  It was so, so good to be home.

We went out to the barn that I spent as much time at growing up as I did my own house. Does that mean I can say yes when people question my manners and ask if I was raised in a barn??? (Mom must be so proud)

Here’s the cute, lower barn. I love it because its so full of character:


We rode pretty ponies that were full of personality, as Sweetie perfectly displays:

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She’s just the slightest bit camera shy….. 😉

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Shiloh was a fan of the camera as well.


As for Ollie, it was too cold to be interested enough to come check out what was going on.  We brought in all the horses because a major cold front moved in the area and many of the horses are clipped for the winter horse shows.  It was sooooo cold.  The temperature dropped about 15 degrees in a matter of minutes and the horses were feelin’ good.

It was an absolute joy to be back around my best friend with the sweetest horses again in my home state.

Thank you, Jesus, for bringing some of my favorite things back into my life. What a way to start out the new year!

I hope 2018 is full of your own favorite things!

I have another exciting trip coming up tomorrow, so until the next adventure..


The Ramblin’ Woman

Real Life

This week life hit me hard. I’m talking emotional breakdown, bawling on the phone to my mom and then for hours afterwards hard. I finally gave up this week, and it has been so freeing.

Ever since I moved to Oklahoma, I have found myself in the middle of a power struggle. A struggle between my own stubborn desires and the desires that God has for me.  I thought I knew best, I thought I knew what He was calling me to do… but, did I even ask Him?

I have done a lot of reflecting these past few weeks as I have noticed myself complaining more, feeling so frustrated, and ultimately coming to the realization that I have lost much of the joy that God has gifted me with. I feel like I am just existing. I have gotten so down in what I don’t have and what I want to happen that I have completely forgotten about what I do have and what is currently happening.

For example: an amazing, supportive family, a roof over my head, a job, friends at work, clothes to wear that will keep me warm through the impending winter, never worrying about having food to eat, having savings, having a car, having breath in me to keep on living.

Friends, there is SO MUCH to be thankful for, SO MUCH to be joyful for, in every situation.

 Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.

1 Thessalonians 5:18

Perspective is a powerful thing.  Glass half empty or half full kinda thing, ya know?

In my blindness to the joys that are ever present, I had/have also blind to God’s plan for me.  I took this job in Oklahoma because I wanted it. I wanted to work for this organization no matter what so I took any job they offered me, despite knowing wholeheartedly that God has more in store for me. I got scared I wouldn’t get another offer. I didn’t want to move home again. I ignored many warning signs, and in my own stubborn ways I packed up all I had in Kansas City and moved south.

In my deep desire to be settled. I let the enemy steal from me, and I settled for less than God’s best for me.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

John 10:10

God wants to bring us joy, and life, and life to the fullest. How incredible is that??? He wants the best for us, but we often think that we know what is best. I try to write my story time and time again, but Jesus is the greatest author ever.

I am now, again, in the midst of a power struggle of letting go of the image I have in my head of my “perfect life” and am letting go to see what desires God has placed in my heart. I am trying to rest in the presence of the Good, Good Father. I gave my burdens, my dreams, my everything to Jesus and I immediately got some peace. I don’t have a clue what will happen in the future, but I know that resting in Jesus is the answer.

It is hard to rest. In this go, go, go world, it is hard to rest in the presence of the Lord. I am struggling with this now, but I encourage you to do whatever you need to feel close to the Lord.  I read a blog this week where a lady wakes up each day and drives out to see the complete sunrise.  For me, it is a drive in the country seeing cattle and ranches and God’s beauty.  I don’t know for sure what it is, but I feel so close to Jesus when I am way out on a county road. Find what it is for you. Seek Jesus and the rest will come–in God’s timing though. 🙂

I don’t know what the next step for me is, but I know with all my heart that following Jesus will always bring me greater fulfillment and joy than chasing my earthly “dreams” will.

Praise Jesus y’all, He is so, so good.

Wide Open Spaces

I am a sucker for wide open spaces.


I am a sucker for horses and cattle. I am a sucker for all things old-fashioned.

This weekend, a couple friends came to visit me in Oklahoma, so we took a day trip up to Pawhuska. Along our journey we found all sorts of wide open spaces, horses and cattle,  and old-fashioned treasures. My heart is happy.

I also have a love for the Pioneer Woman.  I have used her recipes many times and enjoy her blog. Hey Ree, let’s be friends! Once in Pawhuska, we stopped into The Mercantile to pick up tickets for a tour of The Lodge on Drummond Ranch.  This tour absolutely did not disappoint.

The Lodge was so homey with its exposed beams, warm wood accents, cozy furnishings, and beautiful views of the ranch. It also was filled with all the things that make my heart skip a beat, including….


dishes so bright just looking at them made you happy!


rustic and western details throughout,


and of course, the views I could stare at for a lifetime and never grow tired of.

Drummond family, thank you a million times over for opening up your homestead for people like me to come visit. The generosity of this is not lost on me.

And I must say, I am rather jealous that you get to have these views and cattle and horses everyday, but I am filled with peace and a lighter spirit after this visit and filled with a greater hope for my own family ranch one day.


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Following Dreams

The past few weeks have been…crazy? busy? crazy busy?

I completed my internship in Kansas City last Monday, moved to Oklahoma on Tuesday, started my new job on Wednesday, and flew home for my brother’s wedding on Thursday. Wow. What??? Talk about a life changing week.

While this new season of life has brought about a lot of exciting changes, it has also brought a number of questions…Did I make the right move? Should I have taken this job? Will this job get me where I want to go career wise? Will this move get me to where I want to be in my personal life? What am I doing? Where’s the chocolate? Help?

Amidst all of this uncertainty, I do know one thing to be adamantly true:

God is good, God is in control, God knows exactly what He is doing.

That is so comforting, and yet can be so confusing when the Lord seems to be quiet.  Last December I was torn between staying in Kentucky and moving elsewhere to find a job.  I called up my old riding instructor and had a life chat. She gave me one of the most truest and meaningful pieces of advice I have ever gotten.  On that cold, Kentucky December day I was driving through the farm after my interview and was told “It’s not your decision to make anyways. This is God’s plan and you are just along for the ride.”

I am just along for the ride. We are just along for the ride. You are just along for the ride.

I get SO caught up in trying to make the right decisions, trying to work everything out and plan it out in my head. But hello, I do not need to plan anything. We are not called to plan, we are not called to figure it out, we are simply called to trust in Christ and seek Him first and foremost. In my thinking that God was being quiet, I was ignoring the fact that I wasn’t really asking him for guidance or wisdom of what to do or where to turn. I tried to figure it out on my own and was left more confused than I started.  But God is sooooo so good and wants the best for us, not for us to be confused. In reality, my dreams  aren’t mine.  When dreams are God-given, there is not a power in the universe that can stop them from happening and from fulfilling those dreams beyond our earthly expectations. That is a beautiful promise he gave in Ephesians 3:20. Seek Him and it will all work out according to His plan…which in my experience is always WAY better than my plan. 🙂

This had been, and is still, a long season of transitions and feeling not like myself and feeling overwhelmed and feeling just plain weird.  I kept praying, but wasn’t feeling any peace.  Finally, Wednesday morning I picked up my Bible.  Before I opened it I prayed that God would speak to me, and I mean really speak to me.  I opened to Psalm 23.

The first verse: “The Lord is my shepherd, I have all that I need.” HELLO COMFORT.  A few verses later, “He guides me along right paths.” Okay, Jesus. I hear ya.

What a sweet reminder that in the Lord, we have all we need. Not only that, He guides us along the right paths when we surrender to the Lord.

What a sweet, sweet reminder and truth to cling to. Amidst all the change, all the questioning, all the feeling weird and lost and confused that I can cling to the truth that I have all I will ever need because I belong to the Lord and He cares for me, and you, so so deeply that we can’t even fathom the kind of love.

Following your dreams is great, but following Jesus is far better.


Weekend Adventures

I am very tired. My boss and I worked all weekend to prep for our rodeo that starts this week (yay!)

A lot of work got done, a lot of memories were made, and a lot of laughter was had. One of the reasons I started this blog was so I could jot down random things that happened in my day/life and look back on them.  This weekend was full of them so here goes:

  1. Saturday afternoon I walked into Sara’s office with the Razorback game playing on my phone. We had bonded earlier about our love for college football. There was less than 4 minutes in the game with a very close score. I propped the phone up on Sara’s desk and picked up my bowl of food to keep eating it. Within a matter of seconds the phone started to fall and A&M in the red zone people, no bueno. Naturally I dropped, quite literally, everything I was doing (eating, and therefore holding a bowl of food) to catch the phone so we could watch the play…in that one action my bowl of food flew ALL over the office. I’m talking a 7-foot radius of food looking much like a crime scene…. needless to say, I don’t know what the play was or what happened as a result as I stood there in shock looking at the food I had just thrown all over my boss’ office. Oops. Sorry boss lady. We laughed so hard after realizing what exactly had happend.  I also spent the rest of the game siting on the floor laughing about how I am so unbelievably clumsy and watching the Razorbacks loose. again. Hello again Heartbreak Hogs, I wish I could say it is nice to see you again.
  2. Sara and I took a break Sunday afternoon to get our nails done. What a lovely treat it was. As we are walking out of the parking garage, the cross bar that stops cars from leaving without paying comes crashing down on both of us as if to say “Hello, just checking to see if you’re alert. Obviously you are not.” Again– so. much. laughter… and lots confusion what just happened.  The tiredness is leaking into our brains.
  3. Catching flies in the office. Running after flies in the office to kill them. There are lots of flies in the office.
  4. Seeing how many of Dale Brisby’s sayings we can sneak into normal conversation without anyone noticing. Real fun game ol’ son.
  5. Too many others, but lots of fun.

Let me tell you, working on weekends is not at all bad when you work with good people. I am thankful for rodeos, being able to call Sara a friend, and the laughter that was had.

Here’s to continuing the laughter all week.